Yesterday, the impulsive desire to trim my hair was so
strong, cutting it too short than I planned. My hair has been a mess; I did not
take care of my hair as deserved. Now, my crowning glory put me to shame for
white flashes everywhere, root losing black pigment slowly turns light, amidst
my resistance and to top it all, brittle.
The last event I went to a few days ago, people seemed to be
looking younger as they ought to be, my eyes have noticed. During the meeting (for
the future of our school), about 10 parents came to discuss what is best for
the students, everyone looking younger than me as there's not much grey hair
visible. I debate within myself, while tossing a glance on each, whether some
of the parents are older than me thou their hair don't show the real age or was
I older than most parents? Although hair is not the only indication of age, I
assume, glowing skin with a smiling face can also make one look younger. The
parents have even hair colors, unlike mine, salt, and pepper they call it. My
hair is originally black and as time goes by, Ms. White shows up to fight with
Ms. Black for the world to see. It is becoming very obvious and for health
reasons, coloring becomes not an option anymore for me. With so many scary
diseases resulting from chemicals, coloring hair is a goner in my vocabulary. I
just have to live without it and be Au Naturalle!
Early on, coloring my hair in my early twenties and thirties
seemed exciting and also go with the flow of the trend. I have colored it red, blue, blond, brown and
any other colors found on the store shelves. Isn't it fun to show up every day at work with different hair colors and styles? Most of the time, I do it myself
because of money issues. I'll buy a box which includes everything that you need
for coloring hair. There are times when the results are as beautiful as going
to a hair salon but most time, it's not, especially when in a rush. The
combination also makes the difference depending on what color comes next. I do
it twice to three times a year since the gray ones blend well for there are
not many then. I mean, being young does make a difference, easier to hide hair
flaws by pulling it one by one as they show up to brag.
What really struck me most is when my daughter confided in
me that her classmates think I am her grandmother!
She felt embarrassed, hearing from classmates talking about
her grandmother who is her mother actually since I help in school for years. Is
it really embarrassing? I thought to myself. Nowadays, most women's hair is either
streaked, fake wig, colored or other services offered by hair salons to make
someone appealing, fresh and younger and celebrity-like. I have no worry about
the trend now as I am older and wiser, it's a personal choice. I feel different
because of my grey hair, like an outsider of the trend.
At the age of 50, it is hard to hide the silvery shine from
someone who has black hair. Should I pull all the silvers and leave the black
ones? I might end up bald! Is it normal to color one's hair or is it abnormal
to let hair show its true colors?
At the back of my mind, I just want to grow old in a natural
way and it is embarrassing? It is hard to understand the new generation but I
am open to discussion to obtain peace. So, I sat down with my daughter and
explain to her what Au Naturalle is. No
pretenses, just loving myself, body, mind and soul to the max. It's about time
to take a look and listen to the natural way of aging as the clock is ticking to
half a century.
I do take care of my hair in a minimal way. I trim my own
hair because I love to experiment with my own looks. With time going by in a flash,
I have become less obsessed with taking care of my hair because my children
come first. Minimal means - shower,
shampoo, a bit of coconut oil when time allows and I have no regret for one bit.
As I wedge the scissor, gliding along with my long hair, bit by bit my crown of
glory shaped as it should be, holding onto my pride of being Au Naturalle and
smile. I'd gladly settle myself as a
grandmother for those who do not understand that being natural is aging
gracefully with no fear of what the world has to say.
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